now i really think i have to re-organise the links. it's getting very messy. but arranging in alphabetical order is so unoriginal. hmm. maybe i'll arrange in reverse alphabetical order.

arrggh! was trying to do the lit poem analysis thing yesterday... wrote 3 sides on the foolscap before flipping to the back of the blue book and realising i did alot of things wrong. arrggh. and the timonthy winter's thing is not say very challenging... the elegy for jane is so much harder... aside from jane manifesting herself into birds, i dun really know what the poem is talking about... the lover's anguish? but that guy says he isn't her father nor lover... what is he? her brother? die die. usually my lit isn't this bad, but it's been steadily deteorioting since i stopped reading good books and end up reading lousy pokky books, because, really, 'good books' can be so boring. anyway, i hate hmwk and i really wish i didn't put it off until now. i always keep on promising myself that i'll get everything done during the first week or so, but i always end up doing things at the last minute. i'm serious. i have been promising myself that since p2 or 3, but it always doesn't work out... so i am not going to make that same silly resolution for the december holidays, because it won't happen. might as well save myself from getting my hopes too high. (yes this is an extrememly negative attitude, but pessimists are cynical) i think my mum's allowing me to keep a pet! i had to do a bit of truth-stretching here and there, but hopefully it'll work out. and seems as if Ge and Gr are haveing some 'conflict', all thanks Gr's mother. she really is such a hypocrite.

yay! i changed my layout. hope it's ok. i'm still not used to having the links in this format. but my blog looks less cluttered, so it's much better.

help! i still have so much homework left to do! managed to finish my source-based questions for the history homework, but i'm dead... there's english, lit, maths homework and san guo yan yi also. i took about 6 hours to finish my source-based (watched tv in between, play piano halfway, watched some japanese cartoon (i don't hate anime so much now, after watching animatrix) read newspapers, watched more tv, listened to some badari thing, had luch, watched more tv...) so hooray!!! last time i took four hours, though, so i really have to speed up a little. anyway i didn't understand source b and source c so i called up a few ppl... evelyn was fixing up her broadband thing and didn't want to help me with my hmwk, and mui kee just came back from SO and i didn't understand what she was talking about so i just anyhow wrote some answers onto the foolscap (smelly old one) and my mum doesn't know anything. my sis was also no help because she had to leave early for training and anyway she didn't take history, hates history and keeps on yawning when i ask her to help me. soo irritating. so i started playing sims again and it's very hard to play because the cursor keeps on disappearing, so i don't really know where to click. anyway i realise i'm starting to get sick of this template. going to try and change it soon, if i have time.

went with my mum to see Dr Victor Ho today about my crooked teeth. and i must say, that guy is completely nuts. really really crazy. but he was really very nice. he kept calling me dear and saying "i'm sorry, am i hurting you dear." (with a full stop, not a question mark) he called my mum "mam" also then he started hopping around his clinic and told me how he used to be part of some medical experiment where the students stand in one line and have thier teeth extracted like "plucked cherries". yeah that guy is completely crazy. he's very animated also. Dr ho's clinic is on the fifth floor so it's quite convenient because my dad's clinic is on the seventh floor, only two floors up, so i can get a lift home after dentals. (i most probably will be commencing treatment under him) actually i'm quite glad we decided to get a second opinion because dr seah at the mt elizabeth side said i had to extract 4teeth! dr ho says i can strip a bit of my tooth enamel from my pre-molars to create 4mm space, which is all i need for my teeth to be properly aligned, instead of the 14mm i'll get if i extract. i'm a little bit worried because 'stripping' the teeth is basically removing a bit of the enamel from my teeth and i'm really scared i'll get sensitive teeth next time or that my teeth will be more prone to dental caries. shucks. i took the mould of my teeth already and it was really disgusting. the slimy pink stuff got all over my face and i was salivating involutarily. gross. the good news is that my profile is ok "very nice profile" and my jaws are ok, and that my teeth are all in the right position, just that it's a little overcrowded. i'm really relieved that it seems to be very minor, but i really hope problems don't crop up after i go and take the x-ray. i can only do the braces thing after SYF and my next appointment will be on August 13th. i'm really quite worried about whether my playing will be affected, but i have to constantly remind myself that i only have a set of teeth to last me for a life-time.

i want to have a secret blog!!! or else stop blogging entirely. it's very sad that whatever is said on a blog can be used against you. so i should stop? return to my diary (untouched since last year or early this year) but arrggh i hate writing. it's so slow and inconvenient. what's more i have one of the worst hand-writing i've ever seen. typing is faster and i'm getting much better at it (at least i've progressed from the one-finger typing stage)

the fifth book is such a disappointment!!! (yes, i'm really sorry if i irked anyone out there but it's a lousy pokky book) firstly harry potter is such a brat, and cho chang is such a cry baby, and ginny's transformation is too fast. but it's not just that. i did not feel any sense of direction and/or purpose throughout the book. i felt a bit as if i was being dragged along and along on this maddening goose chase. i was pretty mad also because i knew who died even before i read the book and it was so anti-climax i did not enjoy it anymore. so everyone please refrain from giving away major plot details because, really, it's very annoying. it's just like watching a murdersque show and having the identity of the murderer revealed even before the ending... it just spoils everytime! reading through the story and discovering the plot twists as you go is a process, it's the process that helps you cultivate and develop your emotions towards the characters, which i find extremely critical to the overall enjoyment of the story. anyway, reading the book has put me into an irritable mood. i was very critical this morning. i saw an advertisement in streats or today (whichever, they are both very similar to me - lousy pokky newspapers) which irritated the heck out of me because the concept was all wrong. they used the 'famous' quotation "sucess is 1% inspiration and 99% pespiration" to advertise for some feet medicine ('prevents athletes foot, etc etc caused by excessive pespiration')!!! crazy nut heads! they sound so cheap. (yes, all advertisers are.)

errggh. i'm so irritated with her. i noe it's not good to be irritated with others, but emotions are awfully hard to control, mostly because we let them control us, most of the time. keep on popping up all the time, every single time, it was really quite unbearable at times. and she loves to lecture. must she lecture? ok, i can tolerate being lectured, but the way she lectures seems to have the effect both of putting me down and putting herself on the pedestal at the same time. errggh. so self-righteous. self-righteous ppl irritate everybody. so helpless and so errggh. she has also become so sacarstic, even though i've known her for very long. i like a certain degree of sacarsm (understatements make me laugh) in ppl, but hers is the extreme. and sometimes i want to scream at her to shut up. i really wish i'm more adept at seeing the good side of ppl. i really do. it's not a nice feeling to dislike someone so intensly. and it's not healthy, too. i must keep telling myself, that they are

living, breathing

human beings

arrrggghhh! i was really so... rude. hardly any other word for it. i was being honest, but can one be honest and use euphenisms at the same time? yes, but it's difficult. i wish i had thought it out much more carefully. i was impulsive. no other word for it. very impulsive. and i just jumped straight into it without straightening out my thoughts, which was bad. if there is anyone out there who needs to think very, very, very, very carefully before speaking, it's me. i was really thinking on my toes. as soon as the thought entered my head, it exited out of my mouth. which is why it turned out sounding not quite right. if i could change it in any way i could, i would. arrggggh. but it's too late anyway, it's over. which reminds me, POP is coming soon and we really ought to sit down proper and discuss our plans. every other section seems to have some rough idea, but our plans are still quite sketchy.

whew... nominations are over. the anticipation was so much worse than the real thing itself (it always is).