was very very bored last night (can't believe i missed simpsons again!) but there was this stupid show on tv last night that din interest me. so i was rooting around the dvds for smthg nice and funny but i couldn't find any comedies besides bean:the ultimate disaster movie, and you know how i feel about that, having watched it about 7 to 8 times. realised that both my father and brother enjoy buying dark, sadistic movies like red dragon and suckie horror movies. contemplated watching taxi 2 but it was in french (they speak so fast!) and not funny. so i ended up watching the rat race for e fifth time until 12.10am. i fast-fowarded all e boring parts and my favourite part is still e hitler part, where the guy got burned in the throat and had black lipstick on his upper lip and went to e ww2 war veterans commeration and started speaking in smthg that sounded like german when his nazi volkswagon car smashed into the gates and he stood on the podium and started waving his arms around and shouting angrily and sounding like hitler, so the ww2 veteran took out a gun and tried to shoot him! haha. anyway, my mum just got a laptop and it's really nice! she's even got microsoft XP installed and i was fiddling around with it this morning. tried to install age of mythology in it but she got very irritated. the sims is still behaving in a very cranky manner so i can't play. my mum says she wants to bring me and my sis to go and watch finding nemo but i would rather not go with her! she's e kind who will gasp or tsk-tsk or tut-tut or "huh? wat's going on" or "aiyo!" very loudly and start asking loads of questions. and i still want to watch e matrix reloaded. i hope e run's not over yet. i think i'm going to evening mass tonight but i dun want to see ger or her mother! they hate me and ger is turning into such an annoying vain-pok. and honestly, she's such a pain sitting next to. last sunday, i was doing last year's chemistry review test paper during mass and she kept on looking over my shoulder and saying. "wat's that?" so i say to her, "chemistry." and then she goes "wat's that?" then i go "science." and then she goes"ooooooohhhhh." and she tells her mum i'm doing hmwk in church and her mum gets irritated and tells my mum. then my mum is irritated and starts telling me to put God first, etc, etc. harummph. wat a pain in the neck. yesterday geraldine called me and told me tt sims superstar was out and i told her i noe, i got an e-mail offer from maxis in my inbox. and she goes on and on about how if she does well her mum will buy it for her. ok. like her mum will stop tuition for her if she does well. ok. or her mum will buy a ferret for her if she does well. ok. or her mum will buy her a new handphone if she does well. and her mum will buy her a laptop if she does well. geez. wat is her rationale for doing well? materialistic stuff. i wonder if her mum is actually doing her a favour by bribing her. sickening. if i do well, my mum will give me a hug and get me some ice-cream. and that's all! she doesn't even give me money like she does with my brother (0-level: $250 for every distinction, A-level:$300 for every distinction). which is why, unfortunately, life is so unfair. my mum employs double-standards when dealing with my bro, sis and i. she's so much more concerned with my sis than she is with me. she actually knows more about my sis' friends ("so how's Olivia?") and my brother's friends ("how's jonathan? he's grown so tall... he's mummy is auntie mavis, right?") than she does about me. and she cares so much more for my cousins. i'm fine with it (i outgrew the jealousy stage) but sometimes its just so tiring. my mum gets on my back when i dun do well, but she didn't care when i got * points for my L1R5 last term ("hmm. tt's nice... where's the kitchen towel?"). it's really tiring. i miss my hamster.

mid-year review tests are over! but i dun think we're going to have much of a holiday, what with one thing and another going on. the holiday's been shortened and we have extra lessons and cca. why?!! ok for cca i understand we've been having for every holiday, but extra lessons? it's not as if didn't almost kill myself trying to finish e amount of hmwk they gave us during the sars holiday (some holiday, tut-tut). i was very stressed before e MYRTs, especially before e physics and e maths paper, and even now i'm still feeling the effects of sleeping at 12am and waking at 5 everyday. i slept at 10.30 last night, woke up at 9.30 this morning, took a nap from 11 to 2pm, then took another nap from 3 to 7pm, meaning i slept a total of 17 hours from last night to now. and i'm still feeling tired. started drawing up my list of goals after e MEP mid-year on thursday night. i started reading up on a physics chapter until 11 before realising what a complete nut i was being. holidays are a time for rest and relaxation, cmon! wat does it say about singapore if during a holiday, all the kids are studying!!! (or at least, have been told to do so) it's crazy. i'm stressed enough worrying myself sick with one thing and another going on, and i'm supposed to be studying some more. i dun want to grow up a failure (i decided spending about two hours a day on studying should be enough, and the rest to be spent on playing computer!), but even more so, i dun want to grow up a nutcase.