"You are English to a tee, mate. You would feel most at home in the country of rolling hills and patchwork valleys, of the white cliffs of Dover, of craggly bluffs, wild countryside and withering heights and moors. A nice, warm corner pub on a cold wintry evening would make you feel right at home.

Your personality is also a match: Like many English, you value singularity—a lack of inclination to create bonds and acceptance of inherent conflicts among people. For you, a sense of rules is important; and you have a healthy respect for institutions, conventions and rules. You are prone to strong feelings of national pride and national identity to your country. Although pragmatic in day-to-day activities, you can fall quite easily into flights of fancy and idealism.

You are tenacious in the face of adversity and have a humor that is partial to ironic understatement and dry wit. You tend, either in modes of thinking or dress, to lean toward a hip eccentricity. You often have a hard time expressing your intimate feelings and you may, in fact, reject that kind of self-expression as “unseemly.” You don’t like to touch or hug people you don’t know very well.

London is your soul city—with its unique, cosmopolitan mix of young and old, hip avant-garde, working class bravado, age-old pageantry and new immigrant flavor. Visit it one day. You may not want to leave!"


this test if from colourgenics, or smthg like that. really?!

oral sucks! i hate oral. was stumbling throughout. and everytime i talked, i would talk rubbish non-stop and i felt completely out of control, as if i couldn't hold on to what i was trying to say. everything just swooshed out, even things that didn't make sense. there were about three or four uncomfortable pauses, and i would feel so obliged to say smthg, i evantually did. and it didn't make sense!!! arrggh. the stupid slim 10 thing. i started talking about irrevelant matters. i wanted to say shu1 cai4 as in vegetables, but i ended up saying qing1 cai4, as in green vegetables. i bet the examiners were wondering whether you can't lose weight if you don't eat green vegetables. and the second one, about the failure thing, was pretty bad oso. arrrgggh. don't want to think about it, because it's over. but it bugs me all the same. got caught in the rain today. went for self-prac (i played e sec 1s beginner book thing, i was so desperate lor!) my tone still sucks (e sec one book didn't really give tips on tone) and i'm tired, irritable and wet. stupid miss sia. forever threatening and making stupid jokes which aren't funny at all. i can't stand her. anyway she's going to kick me out tmr. damnations. anyway, after that, we were walking to the bus stop but we only had 2 umbrellas among us. so rachel, elaine and me shared one umbrella. while we were walking under the place where the shelter of the HDB block ends (and the sky begins) the umbrella suddenly got tilted and the stupid run-off from the HDB roof (plus the rain) poured on me!!! it was something like taking a shower, only much, much worse. i bet all those itty-bittty mossy algae bits got washed onto me. hip hip hooray, it's a wonderful day.

no, i'm really serious. i wasn't so vindictive yesterday. i was really very sad last night. very very sad (my sis wanted to noe wat was wrong. the thing is, she usually doesn't have to ask me because i'll tell her anyway, even though she doesn't want to hear it. so this is the extent of my disappointment - bottling stuff up has not been a trait of mine). i thought that person was catholic. wat the hell is that person doing!!! errrgggh. i feel very very disgusted. sick, disgusting, gross sickening! is that person catholic or not? that disgusting freak should know better. yuck!

oh good grief. i'm very disappointed. someone i've always been looking up to (i don't know the person personally, but from the newsapaper and tv) has gone ahead and commited a gross act of indecency and i'm very very dispointed. ?! i feel so disgusted at his sai ham behavior. wat the hell? sure, it's that person's own business, but that person should have alot more sense since that person is not exactly not in the public eye. irresponsible! disgusting! i hate that person! and that person had a significant other. i din really use to like that person's significant other but now i really pity that person's significant other. poor thing. bash that person up! yeah! time to look for another role model.

just came back from taking x-ray at medical imaging orchard. yucks! i hate taking x-rays so thank goodness it's over. anyway, i was just wondering why the company includes the radioactive sign in their logo... isn't that kind of negative? whatever it is, they're really proud of it. went to look for some POP presents after the x-ray (took about 10 min) and i bought some elmo bags... they're a bit small, so i don't really think they can contain much (hint hint) went to the mount E carpark to get a lift from my father, and i saw this little dustbin outside the hospital lobby labeled "organic biohazard waste" (with that spiffy little sign) and i was just wondering why they allow organic biohazard waste to be displayed in public like that. i imagine the 'organic biohazard waste' is nothing more than the bits of plastic thing they put over the thermometer which they throw away after that, but still... anyway, i was at paragon before that. there was this prada shop there and it really stood out because it was so empty. well, not exactly empty as in no one there, but more as in it was so simple. minimal displays and decoration. there was a grand total of about (ta-daah!) 5 or 6 clothes racks and they each held about 8 pieces of clothing. i was actually quite amused. it was so eeekkyily pretentious. and i bet they don't even have price tags on the clothes so they have a way of telling whether u're a bona fide upper-end shopper. or not. if you even have to ask for the price, it means you can't afford it, so if you ask for the price, u either blush and hurridly stuff the thing back or u whip out ur credit card with a snotty flourish (if you're a peacocky ah-soh). so it's buy or bye (haha, that was witty) i dunno why i'm blogging about this, because it was a very uneventful day. nothing else to say.

i woke up with this sharp pain on my right side, so i started panicking. was really scared i had appendicities or smthg like that. at least the pain's gone now. (but i'm still quite scared it might come back) anyway, watched titanic yesterday (fourth time) and i realised that it's a nice show! because last time, when it came in 97, i din quite like it (dunno why) it's quite a sad show, although it is a little on the... sappy side. which is frankly quite disgusting sometimes but no matter. the theme song was played over and over again so often that it became quite sickening. i would have prefered smthg less weepy, but it's nice, overall. i shouldn't be blogging. but i had to help someone with her template and now that that's done, so i suppose it's ok. i'm very irritated. tried to install age of mythology yesterday but it couldn't work. and my mum was really annoyed because i was supposed to be doing my work. why do all my games not work now? there is smthg seriously wrong. first mafia can't work although it could work on this computer previously. then age of mythology couldn't work either, although it couldn't work previously. and now the sims. i installed sims superstar and tried to crack the file, but got some error thing. so now it can't work, although it could work previously. this computer hates me. either that or it's in cahoots with my mum.

so noisy!

i deleted my second blog! so sad. but i really didn't feel safe at all. I was really scared that ppl would somehow manage to get to my blog and read all the horrible wat-nots there (otherwise known as paranoia because of a guilty conscience) . then i created another one. but this time not by blogger so i can password-protect it. then i got the e-mail, then i clicked the link... and then... nothing happened. so i think just forget it. i'm not that stressed anyway, so i dun think i have to resort to screaming vulgarities and then publishing it for everyone to see (not that i do, just an example) i'm really wishy-washy, but it's a little on the half-half side on the sentimental side. i shall watch simpsons and malcolm in the middle later. Today during cat class, we had to come up with a parable and go in front of the class to read it out. i read out something remotely like a parable. i think. i liked dominic's parable, the one about the sparrow and the glass dome; and elsa and clarabelle were driving the class crazy with their "safety-pin" jokes. nobody got it and it was really very annoying. today had chinese O-level listening. i think it was pretty much ok, but i got question 2 wrong. i also discovered that i have short term memory. i don't remember what i write 3 seconds after i write it out. i was writing in the section notebook just now and then i looked at wat i wrote and then i suddenly thought, " huh?! i wrote that?!" haha. oh dear. i knew my memory was bad, but not this bad.

i'm back for a little while. not for long. just to comment on how sai the elearning thing is. but more importantly... i've already set up another blog, and the effects are immediate. i feel so liberated. i've whined, whinged complained etc on the blog and it's so liberating! yes it feels great and i'm really really happy. if anyone else has been facing the same problem as me (earlier entry) i'll would suggest setting up a secret blog. it's really really good. of course i do miss this blog, which is why i haven't deleted it yet, but that's besides the point.


don't hesitate, just go ahead!

i've just made up my mind. I feel quite sad, quite weird, almost at a loss... but it's necessary. From now on, i shall not be updating very much. I finally decided that i'm going to set up another blog - but this time, it'll be secret. i've always thought and felt that a blog should help me vent my frustrations, but i don't see this happening. In fact, there's almost this been unhealthy need to keep up an appearance, some sort of facade. it grows tiring, and honestly i'm quite weary of doing it all the time. it's all in the links. you never know who's reading your blog. and this is why you have to watch what u say. it gets so frustrating. i really watch wat i say. avoid taboo topics, avoid entries that express how i feel. anytime i try to express any anger or irritation etc, i always so cryptic. i hate being cryptic. it's like trying to hide behind nonesensical jargon. i've actually been thinking of a sercret blog for quite a while. i wasn't actually serious about the idea, but i heard a few ppl were doing smthg like that and that got me thinking. then i thought "why not do that and this blog concurrently?" sounds ideal, doesn't it? blah blah. i know perfectly well that it will not work out. definitely not. and i think it's better to choose the more holistic option. which brings me back to this blog. i dunno. it's my first blog. i put in a lot of effort, changing the template (5 or 6 times already) adding links, learning html, etc. (if only i could be like that when it comes to school work) and i feel very attached to this blog. so i don't think i'll abandon it per se. maybe i'll update every once in a while if i feel like it. (gosh, i sound so mushy. yuck.) arrrggh! i really don't know! i'm not ready to abandon this blog! but now after getting back all the mid-year review papers and wat with wat going on, my spirits have taken a real dip. and i think it's necessary. i think abandoning a blog is like losing a friend. even if it's a friend that you can't really confide in.